Well, at least you know what’s on his mind!

Actor Liam Neeson has been making an attempt to clean up a statement he made regarding an alleged rape of a friend by a Black man and it’s not going over well.

The Irish actor admitted he considered carrying out murder against a random Black man years ago after someone close to him was allegedly raped by a Black man.

She said it was a black person. I went up and down areas with a cosh, hoping I’d be approached by somebody—I’m ashamed to say that—and I did it for maybe a week, hoping some [making air quotes with his fingers] ‘black bastard’ would come out of a pub and have a go at me about something, you know? So that I could kill him.”

Listen to the entire Independent interview.

Liam also spoke to Robin Roberts on Good Morning America, explaining why he’s not racist. He said he did seek out help – from a priest – after realizing how shockingly dark his thoughts were. He also claimed that if his friend said the attacker was white, he would have tried to seek out a person fitting that description.