Christian Combs sat down with Angie Martinez and publicly discussed the untimely death of his mother, Kim Porter, for the first time.

“One thing I never told anybody right when I found out the news like I was shocked. I didn’t know what to do. My whole world stopped,” the 20-year-old said. “As soon as I got in the car.. ’cause I landed at the airport.. as soon as I    got in the car, my song ‘Love You Better’ came on the radio. I’m like ‘nah, I know that’s her talking to me.’ Making sure I know everything is okay.”

The mother, model, and entrepreneur passed away suddenly after suffering from cardiac arrest on November 15. She was only 47. She is survived by her four children Quincy Brown, Christian Combs, and her twin girls, D’Lila Star, and Jessie James.

The full interview with Angie Martinez and Christian is set to air today.